Growing up...

Why is it that we have to trade in the fun things we did when we were kids for the responsibilities of adulthood? Why can't we just have both. I don't think you can ever be too old for a late night bonfire, or a picnic at the park.

Life right now for me is trying to figure out this new growing up thing. Thanks to the mission I have my priorities straight. Church--> Family--> School--> Job--> Fun.

@Church: I have a great calling. I don't think I could ask for any better place to serve. Teacher's quorum adviser is one of the funnest and rewarding callings one could have. I love watching the 1 teacher I have progress in the gospel and scouts. You can see how it effects his life. Home teaching is one of the funnest things I have ever got to experience, I love my families and am so excited to know that I am doing what I am supposed to.

@Family: With my dad passing away and all, it has been kinda hard. I think I put on a really good face and try not to let my emotions get the best of me, but I fail every once and a while. It's hard when people ask how you are doing. Do you really tell them, "Horribly I miss him terribly." I've found it a lot easier to say, "We are doing good!" At least then they don't give you any lectures :). I'm glad I'm with my mom though. She is the best example to me. I'm getting to learn everything I can from her while I'm still at home.

@School: After a lot of prayer and promptings it just didn't feel right to be leaving Vegas to go to Idaho. I visited Rachel a couple weeks ago and it just wasn't the place for me. I felt that my place was at home by my mother. A place where I had a job, scholarship, and free room and board haha. CSN meet the greatest student you'll ever receive!!

@Job: I don't think I could be any more lucky. Not only did a land a super sweet job (Thank you mission blessings) but I am working for the man who has been more role model for nearly 11 years. If you can't count that has been since I was 10. I'm working for Cameron Steele at AMS Insurance. I couldn't be more excited.

@Fun: Finally after 2 years of hard work its time to enjoy what God has given me. The great thing about fun, is that it can be anywhere. Fun isn't just something you do when your done with everything else, fun is something that can be found while doing everything else. I'm excited to be able to go get Slurpee's and Sushi with friends (not at the same time).

I have a great girlfriend. She is so amazing. I am so glad I have such a good friend. She helped me through some of the hardest times that I have ever lived through. She's there whenever I need her and always makes me smile. She's super cute too! I love her a lot.

Growing up is tough. I miss being young, but getting old happens, but it takes skill to still be young! Life is epic so live it up!

Wall Flower

Yep, I have officially become that person who plants themselves on the walls at social gatherings. I never believed I would be an AWKWARD person when I came back from my mission but tonight was a harsh reality check.
Here I am a Return Missionary, I've spent the last two years making small talk and being super social but when it comes to a party with new people and old friends, I buckled under the pressure. I was that guy who stood off to the side constantly checking his cell phone for some kind of escape. Even face book couldn't cure my newly discovered disease.

Finally when friends arrived on the scene, they came said their hi's and were back out the door.
At one point in the evening there was cake, which eventually turned into an epic cake fight. Somehow water balloons mixed their way into the equation and everything became a soaking, cakey mess.
To top it all off, instead of throwing the water balloons and cake, I ended up cleaning it up... party animal, let me tell you. I think at one point I would have rather of stayed at home, less embarrassing. At least at home its safe to be uneducated in dancing, but at a party... nothing screams awkward like the person who refuses to dance for fear of embarrassing him/herself.

I have become that person.... ugh... what happened to me.?

My Whole World (Song)

I think its kinda self explanatory

My Whole World

This could be the last time
Choose your words carefully and say
What you really wanted
Because theres no room left to play
We're balanced on a tight rope
no room for error or we both fall down
We're walking on the eggshells
Of misused words we sadly found

But today is the day
Where we both try to figure out
What to say what to say
Cause its almost over now

Cause all I ever wanted
was to love you
and all I ever needed
was your smile
I took it all for granted
But I meant it
When I said , When I said
You're my whole world

I fight the tears that come now
As I fight the words that hurt inside
I never wished to say them
I never wanted to say goodbye

But today is the day
Where we both have to turn around
Our separate ways our separate ways
And finally figure out

That all I ever wanted
was to love you
and all I ever needed
was your smile
I took it all for granted
But I meant it
When I said, When I said
You're my whole world

So this will be the last time
I ever get to kiss your pretty face
I hope one day you'll realize
Realize to yourself and Say

That all he ever wanted
was to love me
and all he ever needed
was my smile
I took it all for granted
But he meant it
When he said , When he said

That your all I ever wanted
and I love you
Your all I ever needed
and your smile
I took it all for granted
But I meant it
When I said, When I said
You're my whole world

A Moment Like This (Song)

I wrote this song about 2 years ago for two of my dear friends who fell in love. Its about the epic battle two people have when they first like each other to make use of the moment that brings forth their first kiss. Cody Lehr and Kristen Laidlaw are an example of what I want my relationship to be with someone when that day comes again. They are so sweet to each other and they truely do love each other with all of their hearts. This is the original song I wrote for them and I wanted to post it before I changed it up, and I want to let them know how happy I am for them. I strive to find a relationship that lasts like yours does and I hope to be as happy as you two.

Without any more Jabble lol....

A Moment Like This

Your misty eyes they glow

Like the sun when it touches snow

It sparkles and takes my breath away

And our hands touch over time

In this beat up car of mine

I feel like flying away

I'm a nervous wreck

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[Chorus]

This is the time

When a person really shines

And shows the world what they've learned

To overcome it all

A moment like this

Deserves a special kind of kiss

It shows the world that the girl that you love

Is worth a moment like this

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We sit and talk all night

About whats dumb and what you like

from music to how you do your hair

and that awkward silence nears

its one of my worst fears to sit in

the silence of the dark

Oh this feeling

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[Chorus]

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My trembling fingers

Touch your hair

We dare not move

And I dare not stare

And our hands they tighten

On a night like this

Our bodies shake

and we finally kiss

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[Chorus]

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This is awesome!

This my friends is the newest member to my family! Kinzie Joan Canfield! Its funny how nothing seems to matter when a new child is born. For a minute everyone stops and ponders the mysteries of God. As we sat and talked my brother Gene mentioned that Kinzie doesn't cry. I thought that was awesome but then again she had only been alive for 6 hours so she didn't really have much time to show off those lungs! And this got me thinkin. 6 hours ago Kinzie was with our Heavenly Father. I wonder what goes on in the conversation between God and a child as they are about to embark into the world. Does he warn her? Does he give her tips? Does he tell her that she is being sent to a loving home? I'm sure the last thing he tells a Child is, "I love you... and I will see you soon." HOW comforting would that be?

Preparing for a mission I tend to think about this alot. I'm going to miss my mom (I don't say my dad cause he's tough haha he will tell me to suck it up and be a man dangit!). If you ask my brothers she is one of the biggest influences in all of our lives. When we needed advice we go to her. When we are having a problem she is the first person we call. My mom is one of the single most important people in my life, and I'm going to miss her alot when I'm gone. We are talking about a lady who never missed making me an easter basket for 18 years, who still marked Santa Clause on my gifts this last Christmas and who when everyday I got home from work (at 8 A.M.) sat and talked with my while I ate breakfast. Saying good bye to someone who loves you so much is probably one of the hardest things a person has to do, but we know that we have to do it.

I think the same thing applys to Heavenly Father. I think its hard for him to let us go but he knows we have to do it. Which brings me back to Kinzie. She is at the point of starting a new adventure. I new path, a brand new life. She only has a certain amount of time left on this earth to leave a mark in peoples lives. To live her life to be an example of Jesus Christ. Now mind you she may need to learn how to crawl and walk and talk first. I am starting a new adventure. This time in my life is an awesome one. I get to teach and meet new people and tell them about Gods great gift of eternal life. Its kind of hard to be scared when you know that God is on your side. :) Luke 1:37

Humble yourself.

Does it surprise you sometimes how our pride can become a road block in life at times? Sometimes I just don't understand. A humble heart can make a blind man see, can heal a leper, can revive the dead. We can all see the miracles that happen to people who humble themselves into allowing the Lord into their lives.

I have a friend named Jade who 1 year ago wanted nothing to do with the Church. He was addicted to smoking and other things. He humbled himself and was challenged to read the Book of Mormon. In which he did. Did he stumble? Of course. But one year later I was able to watch him open his mission call. How awesome is that?!

I think sometimes we all need to sit back and take a look at our lives. Find whats causing us the most pain and fix it. I know thats what i've done and for the most part it has worked out so greatly. I love my friends, the Gospel, and am proud to be able to have the opportunity to serve a mission. I am so greatfull to be worthy to go to the temple and It will be an awesome experience. But for those who are not worthy, don't forget that its never to late and that the Lord loves you. Enter back into his fold and he will wrap his arms around you and embrace you with blessings of Love and Peace.

My Testimony

I know though that I am about to embark on something great, but I can only feel like something big is about to happen. I don't know what it is but... something is going to happen soon. In this case I want to bear my testimony so that when I or others are in need of a spiritual uplifting it is able to be read.

This is for my family, friends, and specifically for Teylor Lytle and Matt Stewart.

I have a testimony of God the Eternal Father and his son Jesus the Christ. I know that they love me. I know that God hears my prayers that he blesses my life with the ability to live in such a great and marvelous time. I have testimony in the atonement that Christ paid for me, that my sins are able to be forgiven so that I may be able to return to God. I wish to be more like him, compassionate, loving, obedient, humble. I know that one day I will have a chance to meet him and I will only be able to try to thank him. I know that the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints is the true church. That Joseph Smith was able to kneel and ask for the truth and received an answer from God himself. That the Book of Mormon was translated in the hands of a modern day prophet. I know that it is true. I believe in the words which were written by prophets of old. I have a testimony in the family. That it is the single most important thing in our lives. That all paths lead to the temple so that we may be able to live with our families forever. I believe in the message of hope. That in these latter days that we should be happy. That with our family we may be able to endure to the end. That we should have hope and love so that we may be able to get through the rough times. I love my Mother and Father. My mom is the single most important woman in my life, I love her so much. I wish that I could be more like her. She holds our family together and loves me with all her heart. I am grateful for a father who shows me that no matter what life throws at you, you keep going. I testify that God is my father, and loves all his Children. I believe in Jesus Christ and I am prepared to meet him again. I so testify in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.