Friday, September 23, 2011

Too Much on my Mind

Tonight is one of those nights where there is just too much going through my mind to sleep. It’s not little things either. More about my future and the things to come. Why is this time in my life so full of hard choices haha?

I miss those good ole days hanging with the guys before volleyball practice playing Halo. Or kickin it at Taco Bell after school. Driving up to Mt. Charleston and hiking up a mountain. Those were the days where the choices that you made didn’t really have Mindmuch of an effect on what your future looked like.

Now it’s a whole other ball game. What am I going to become? Who will I marry? Where will I go for school? What will I do for work? All of the questions need some answers, at least for me they do and because the answers are not all set in stone its hard for me to be complacent with them. I need to feel like my life is mapped out before I go getting lost in the woods of life.

I understand that not all questions will be answered. For example I realize that I won’t really know who I will marry till it feels right. But the other questions about what I will be doing with my life I feel should be coming to more of a round up right now in my life than just starting to be developed.

For now, lets just hope I might be able to get some sleep.

Thursday, September 22, 2011

And Yet Another Day

Yep, just another day at work. That’s kinda how I like it really. When I first started this wasn’t my favorite thing in the world. But now that I have more of a designated position it’s one of my favorite places to be. I would rather spend my entire day at work than face to real world when I got home. Sad right?

Not that home is bad, because its not, I love being at home. But I just feel busy and aggressive at work, then I go home and lose that drive and desire to do anything.

I figure the money is good so this isn’t exactly a bad thing so this isn’t really a major crime of a desire.

Anyways, take it easy blog!

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

Pretty Funny Advice

‎"To all the girls who are in a hurry to have a boyfriend or get married, a piece of biblical advice: "Ruth patiently waited for her mate Boaz." While you are waiting on YOUR Boaz, don't settle for any of his relatives; Broke-az, Po-az, Lyin-az, Cheating-az, Dumb-az, Drunk-az, Cheap-az, Locked-up-az, Good-for-nothing-az, Lazy-az, and especially his third cousin Beatin-yo-az. Wait on your Boaz and make sure he respects Yoaz".


Life is an interesting thing. Sometimes you are on top of the world and you ask yourself, " What could possibly bring me down?" Then those moments come when the world does a Jackie Chan move to your jugular, which means you aren't getting up for a bit. Why do we have to have these roller coasters in our lives?

I think our first reaction when things are going absolutely amazing in our lives, is to try to share whatever new found inspiration that has morphed inside us with everyone else.
"Don't stress there is no need in life that is so big you have to stress over it."
"Just relax and take life slow, no need to rush through it."
It's good and healthy to give that advise to others. They may not need it at the moment but they may eventually use it for their benefit. Also sharing what you have learned makes you feel important and needed. I recommend everyone share their feelings and discoveries in life in a non-overbearing caring way. Because these are self evident truths that don't change.

For example, we shouldn't rush through life. Why would you want to give away precious days of your life? Whether you be going through hell and back or you are just plain bored out of your mind you can always been learning and growing as a person.

But even though they are true it is always hard to be on the opposite end and hear these statements. How do you explain to a homeless child that there are lessons he needs to learn from his trials? How do you tell POW that he shouldn't wish for tomorrow, that he should embrace each day as it comes?

You can't, and if you can you better do it like mentioned above, in a carings non-overbearing manner.

Think back to a day where you felt like things were just wrong. The day you put yourself down. Told yourself you weren't good enough, fun enough, happy enough. Do you think that someone could have told you just to be happy and your mood would have changed? If you are anything like me, it makes it worse :P.

I think that the reason we go on the roller coaster in life is to appreciate the good times when they come, and learn from the bad times while they are here. How could we ever know what true happiness is, if we never knew what true sadness was.

Live your life, don't let days pass you by. Always look for the good in things. Keep your glass half full. Life is more enjoyable when you can learn to overcome your trials and love your life.

Tuesday, June 28, 2011

Growing up...

Why is it that we have to trade in the fun things we did when we were kids for the responsibilities of adulthood? Why can't we just have both. I don't think you can ever be too old for a late night bonfire, or a picnic at the park.

Life right now for me is trying to figure out this new growing up thing. Thanks to the mission I have my priorities straight. Church--> Family--> School--> Job--> Fun.

@Church: I have a great calling. I don't think I could ask for any better place to serve. Teacher's quorum adviser is one of the funnest and rewarding callings one could have. I love watching the 1 teacher I have progress in the gospel and scouts. You can see how it effects his life. Home teaching is one of the funnest things I have ever got to experience, I love my families and am so excited to know that I am doing what I am supposed to.

@Family: With my dad passing away and all, it has been kinda hard. I think I put on a really good face and try not to let my emotions get the best of me, but I fail every once and a while. It's hard when people ask how you are doing. Do you really tell them, "Horribly I miss him terribly." I've found it a lot easier to say, "We are doing good!" At least then they don't give you any lectures :). I'm glad I'm with my mom though. She is the best example to me. I'm getting to learn everything I can from her while I'm still at home.

@School: After a lot of prayer and promptings it just didn't feel right to be leaving Vegas to go to Idaho. I visited Rachel a couple weeks ago and it just wasn't the place for me. I felt that my place was at home by my mother. A place where I had a job, scholarship, and free room and board haha. CSN meet the greatest student you'll ever receive!!

@Job: I don't think I could be any more lucky. Not only did a land a super sweet job (Thank you mission blessings) but I am working for the man who has been more role model for nearly 11 years. If you can't count that has been since I was 10. I'm working for Cameron Steele at AMS Insurance. I couldn't be more excited.

@Fun: Finally after 2 years of hard work its time to enjoy what God has given me. The great thing about fun, is that it can be anywhere. Fun isn't just something you do when your done with everything else, fun is something that can be found while doing everything else. I'm excited to be able to go get Slurpee's and Sushi with friends (not at the same time).

I have a great girlfriend. She is so amazing. I am so glad I have such a good friend. She helped me through some of the hardest times that I have ever lived through. She's there whenever I need her and always makes me smile. She's super cute too! I love her a lot.

Growing up is tough. I miss being young, but getting old happens, but it takes skill to still be young! Life is epic so live it up!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Wall Flower

Yep, I have officially become that person who plants themselves on the walls at social gatherings. I never believed I would be an AWKWARD person when I came back from my mission but tonight was a harsh reality check.
Here I am a Return Missionary, I've spent the last two years making small talk and being super social but when it comes to a party with new people and old friends, I buckled under the pressure. I was that guy who stood off to the side constantly checking his cell phone for some kind of escape. Even face book couldn't cure my newly discovered disease.

Finally when friends arrived on the scene, they came said their hi's and were back out the door.
At one point in the evening there was cake, which eventually turned into an epic cake fight. Somehow water balloons mixed their way into the equation and everything became a soaking, cakey mess.
To top it all off, instead of throwing the water balloons and cake, I ended up cleaning it up... party animal, let me tell you. I think at one point I would have rather of stayed at home, less embarrassing. At least at home its safe to be uneducated in dancing, but at a party... nothing screams awkward like the person who refuses to dance for fear of embarrassing him/herself.

I have become that person.... ugh... what happened to me.?